I try explaining to her that me, Shelby and Whit are all buying a few fireworks for tonight and she has a stick up her ass and told me "sometimes I don't want to be your mom". I try not to be phased when she says stuff like that, but it really does hurt. I haven't even been home for an entire day and already I want out as fast as I can. I'm so glad I have 2 more band camps left and then our school marching band camp.
Band trips are seriously like therapy. At my house, they all sit around and yell at me for always wanting to do stuff....even if it is just simply going to the gym and stuff that costs little or no money. I'm one of those people that wants to make the most of every moment and not let it go to waste. At band camps, I connect with so many people that feel the same way and also use the camps as their "escape". They're the people that will stay up till 3 am and talk and they're the people that will do wild and crazy things with me.
I miss it already. I feel unwanted here and I don't want to be here either. I'm going to leave in a few minutes....even if it is just driving around aimlessly. I can't stand her sometimes and I KNOW she can't stand me.
Bah!!! I want to be happy and I won't let anything stop me. Today should be fun! I don't know why she has a frickin stick up her ass!